Working 9 to 5...

Well not really. One of the most challenging things I find about being self employed is constantly motivating myself. I've been my own boss for over fifteen years now, with the exception of part time work like catering, and retail, where yes, I had to show up and do what I was told...which I mostly did...when not slacking off. As an actor I found being my own scheduler and cheerleader hard enough, although I could always make a full day out of working out, getting ready, preparing, driving across town to audition, waiting, auditioning, and driving back, which could easily take 5-6 hours. But as an actor that is the job, to be in a constant state of readiness and to audition, get called back and hopefully book the job...because that is the only way to get paid.

However as a writer, there is no external force, no agent saying go to this casting office for this time, no casting director telling me what to do...there is just me and my computer screen and somewhere inside of me, hopefully, a little cheerleader that says, "oh this is so great, creating something from nothing, for hours all day by myself, alone, what a privilege, what a joy, I can do it...again...and again..and again..."

One of the things that I do to keep the cheerleader fired up is to take writing classes at UCLA. I am in the Writers Program, which is one of the best in the country, and has the most amazing teachers. I am in the certificate program for creative writing and am 3/4 of the way through. I love it, it motivates me and challenges me and exposes me to all sorts of fantastic writers and makes writing just a little less lonely. And yet, I have decided to take the next quarter off...to just focus...and write, and let all that knowledge settle in my brain. It was the right thing to do, I know, but as my last class just ended, I find it's just me again, and my computer, and the little cheerleader inside me, who better pick up those pom poms and start ra ra-ing if she knows what's good for her.

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